Thank you from the bottom of my aching, joyful, heart to each and every one
“Sorrow comes in great waves…
but it rolls over us, and though it may
almost smother us it leaves us on the
spot and we know that if it is strong,
we are stronger, inasmuch as it
passess and we remain.”
Henry James
of you who took the time to let me know that what I am posting touches you. Your presence, sent in this way, means more to me than you can imagine at this very difficult, and often lonely time in my life. Some of you know that I a struggling to recover from the debilating effects of a having a (blessedly benign) tumor pressing against the base of my spine for over two years before it was discovered and removed on Feb 2nd. It was my greatest hope to be able to be with my Mother, and help her in the last weeks and days of my Father’s life. Sadly this did not come to pass, and after a long struggle with kidney disease and Parkinson’s, my darling daddy, died of a heart attack on Mother’s Day. He loved me, his granddaughter, art, music, theatre and poetry (he was once the executor of e.e. cumming’s literary estate) and especially his rock and beloved wife of 57 years, Gwynneth, who nursed and cared for him impeccably over the last difficult 3 years of his life. During his life time, he supported and encouraged the hopes and dreams of many budding and accomplished artists, and writers, including, myself, and my beautiful god-sister, the painter and environmentalist, Elizabeth Blau. elizabethblaustudio.com. (She has promised to share some of her work here very soon.) And I know that he would be proud, that in spite of everything, I am continuing to work to the best of my ability. With warmest Aloha and Appreciation to all of you who have reached out with love and care, you give me strength and make the world a better place. Be the Beauty you Love. Aho
Beautiful words, Sabrina…. so very sorry.
I’m sure your dear father thought of this poem when thinking of you and still does.
i carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
This is my first visit to your site. I’m glad I stopped by. My deepest condolences on your loss.
Thank you for your heartfelt words. I am excited to visit your site and see what inspires you which I will do after I eat a much needed lunch!
Thank-you. As you’ll see my topic for this blog is about a personal journey. Know that I’ve come a long way and am finally able to write about it…and also know that I’m now doing well. Best wishes.
Sabrina, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your dad. He sounds like an amazing man, I wish I could have known him. My prayers and love to you as you heal from your own medical challenge. I hate to think of you suffering in any way. OX-Jamie
So very good to hear from you. You are one of my heroes. Big Hug